‚Life on the departure platform?
It always hits me when people focus their lives on finding a husband/wife in order to reach happiness.
Isn’t is just too bad when life’s all about living on a departure platform… you wait and wait and wait for life to begin – exactly then and only once you got married.
And what if I don’t get married?
Does God really want to deprive me of what I need for my happiness, for a fulfilled life?
Do I spoil my happiness by me wanting things to be different?’
Astrid Eichler
This is something I’ve read this morning… well just ½ hour ago!
Right now I’m at work and I’m actually supposed to do some ‘real’ work – but hey, I need to get this out of the system!
Man… these words are so flipping challenging!
I must admit that I’m right there on the departure platform.
Have I wasted far too many years waiting for Prince Charming to appear and pull me on his horse so we’d be happy for ever and ever? Do I have to check every single guy for his Prince Charming potential?
Why can’t (or why doesn’t) God just take this longing out of my single person heart and mind?
I wanna live a life which glorifies God!
But it seems that the older I get the more I run in circles – and I really don’t want this. I want to be content with whatever he has for me.
If that’s singlehood – it’s singlehood (ok Lord, PLEASE not!!!).
If it’s being married – it’s being a wife and possibly a mother!
But hey, I wanna know NOW!
I don’t want to stand at this stupid platform any longer waiting for a train which might never come.
I can’t stand listing to love songs any longer, don’t wanna watch ‘While you were sleeping’ again… (Even while writing this I KNOW that I’ll listen to those songs again and I certainly will watch ‘While you were sleeping’ along with ‘Ever after’ and….)
Thinking about it and ignoring those nagging thoughts – maybe this is just the battle ‘we singles’ or let me say I have to face.
Cause again and again I simply HAVE to bring it before God. I can’t deal with this on my own. Don’t even want to think of where I’d be without the Lord!
For the past 7 years the lyrics of this song (actually just one line) keeps on popping up in my mind
‘For he knows better than I! He knows the way! I’ve let go the need to know why! For he knows it better than I!’
Flipping hard – but for me the only way to go!
Ok, maybe this was a bit too honest for this innocent little blog of mine! But well…
Kategorien: Schmidts
5 Kommentare
Cindy · 07/15/2007 um 17:18
Hi Heiks
Was just reading your blog (which is great by the way) and can totally relate to what you are saying. Its very hard not to swing from hopeful to hopeless in a matter of a few thoughts!! I wish I could promise that Mr Right is just round the corner but I don’t know but I do know that its not to do with you, cos you’re a great, lovely person who would be a fantastic wife for someone. So sorry, but maybe it helps to know you aren’t alone. Chat again. Oh yeh and come to England!!
Wollo · 07/02/2007 um 07:16
The train just left…
😉
Heiks · 07/01/2007 um 07:19
I don’t deserve all you really encouraging people – which won’t keep me from saying a massive THANK YOU to you guys!!!
Yes… gotta go… the train’s about to leave 🙂 hihihi
david & andrea · 07/01/2007 um 06:08
Hey. I’m so glad you still blog even though you’re on facebook too. (: I love your blog! I just want to tell you that I can totally relate to everything you said. I mean, maybe that’s meaningless because I’m married now. (: But less than a year ago I wasn’t and I totally went through the same circles… wanting and hoping… telling myself I shouldn’t, I should just be content… but still the desire is there… ahhhh! In looking at your life I wouldn’t say you’ve been sitting around waiting to start your life. You’ve lived some pretty cool life! I think maybe you’re on the train thinking it would be very nice if that seat next to you weren’t empty. Which I don’t think there’s anything wrong with, as long as you stay on the train and keep living life. (: You could go check out the dinner car, hook up your laptop to see who’s on other trains, walk around the train to see if anyone new got on at the last station… all while going about your normal daily business. (: Sorry to stretch the metaphor that far. (: But you know what I mean. God hasn’t clearly told you that you should be single, so I don’t see it as going against him (I wouldn’t even call it „not content“) to have a sincere desire and ask him to please fulfill it. And then just keep living life day by day with him… and see what happens! Either way He’s sure to keep your life interesting. (:
helle · 06/27/2007 um 23:11
hey hey slow down. It´s a normal wish to get married and start a family und live a happy life ….
But I guarantee that there are at least as much disppointed couples as singels. And let´s face it: There are no white kniths in a twinkling armament. Just normal men. But that species you find 3.6 billion times on earth. In every size, weight and colour 🙂
I promise that you´ll have a very heavy life towing a departure plattform around (and where to put it at night?) If there is no one in your very surrounding, just turn the stones, look twice an enlarge your searching area! You are great and there´s no need to be shy. Step forward and do´nt do it too much with your head!