{"id":94,"date":"2005-12-09T15:05:00","date_gmt":"2005-12-09T13:05:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.schmidtswelt.net\/wollopress\/?p=94"},"modified":"2005-12-09T15:05:00","modified_gmt":"2005-12-09T13:05:00","slug":"december-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.schmidtswelt.net\/?p=94","title":{"rendered":"December… again???"},"content":{"rendered":"
Well\u2026 what to say?
Here we are\u2026 it\u2019s the beginning of December and I have absolutely no clue how this has happened. Again! This year is almost over!!! I can\u2019t believe it!
It seems like yesterday that I got back from Doulos and moved to Mosbach.
And now it\u2019s already a couple of months since I\u2019m back in Giessen (at my parents place).
Odd how this can happen. I mean\u2026 this\u2026 well\u2026 time just passing by!
But if I actually take the time to look back at the last 12 months, I am simply amazed! Amazed by God\u2019s faithfulness.
Not sure if you remember my last update in 2004 (or was it the first in 2005?!)? I announced this year to be: Heike\u2019s year of trusting God!
And one thing I can tell you for sure\u2026 I forgot about this many times – But it seems like God didn\u2019t!
It has been a year full of changes, full of answers to prayer, challenges, joy & fun, tears\u2026 all in all I suppose you may just call it \u2018normal life\u2019. But what is normal anyway? \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

Earlier on this morning I read something in the bible which I came across already a few times this year:
\u2018I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
Along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
And make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them.\u2019
Isaiah 42, 16
<\/strong><\/span>Somehow I find this verse so comforting. I never really thought about it much though. It was just one of those \u2018nice\u2019 things in the bible, one of his promises. But this morning I thought a bit more about it\u2026
*Blind\u2026 he will lead the blind. Well, I have felt quite blind the last couple of months. Not sure where things were\/are heading toward. Not sure where I was\/am at\u2026<\/span>
*He will lead the blind by ways they have not known. Hm\u2026 not sure if the blind like that?! If I imagine myself to be blind, not being able to see anything, just trusting\u2026 also trusting my senses\u2026 I think I wouldn\u2019t want to be too adventurous. I would take the same way to the supermarket every single time. (as I am a person appreciating some sort of routine anyway:-))
But this was the \u2018breaking\u2019 point for me. God says that he will lead me. But he will not necessarily follow my conditions. He\u2019s the one setting the conditions, making up the rules.
He says \u2018I\u2019ll guide you! I promise!!! Trust me.\u2019
And while God says that my mind goes of thinking \u2018Now everything is gonna be ok. It will be a nice little walk. I have God with me. Guiding me. Showing me the way. Leading me. It can\u2019t be too hard. I\u2019m sure he will take me to some great place.\u2019
And yes\u2026 eventually he will do just that! But the road might not be the nicest all the time. I might go uphill. I might get out of breath and hot and sweaty. We might take some stops at places I wouldn\u2019t have chosen.
And somehow this was some sort of answer for me. I know that God\u2019s ways are full of detours (at least from my point of view). And at times I find it really hard to appreciate or to even enjoy them. But his promises go on\u2026 he\u2019s not only taking me to or on this ways that are unfamiliar to me\u2026 but:
<\/span>*I will turn the darkness into light
*And make the rough places smooth
*These are the things I will do. I will not forsake them.
Amazing!!! God can be trusted. By now he\u2019s used to silly Heike being scared and wanting to take the safe road. But still\u2026 he\u2019s the one setting the conditions! He will take the best road. Whatever that might mean\u2026 something new, challenging, unfamiliar sometimes! Maybe this also means that you can\u2019t even trust yourself or your own judgement\u2026 only God! Only God you can really rely on!
But then again he\u2019s not cruel. He\u2019s there, he\u2019s leading, he\u2019s even turning the darkness into light (just for you!), he makes the rough road smooth!
Ok, I better stop here. But these are just some thoughts on this verse. Some things that popped up. And I know that there is still so much more to learn. More unfamiliar paths ahead! Watch out for blind Heike! \ud83d\ude42
<\/span>
When I wrote my last update I was about to make a decision about some future stuff\u2026 as you know I left OM with no job coming up. It has been kinda hard to not know what would be happening next and it took quite some time for me to relax and also to see the other side of the coin and to enjoy the time ahead.
And now\u2026 this time will be up soon. A couple of weeks back I agreed on doing the Line up for OM Ships new ship \u2018Logos Hope\u2019!
I must admit that I\u2019m really excited about it. I\u2019ll be moving to Bremen (northern Germany) some time in February 2006. Those of you who know Nelly Enns (also X Doulos Line up and my X Cabinemate)\u2026 she will be doing this line up too. There might be someone else joining us. I will be part of this team until summer \u201906. What\u2019s going to happen after that is still a (sometimes quite big) question mark.<\/p>\n

But for now\u2026 I\u2019m excited!!! \ud83d\ude42 Very excited actually! \ud83d\ude42
The next couple of weeks are pretty much planed. Some X Doulois coming to visit, me going to see some friends further away, Christmas, new year, spending some time in Mosbach\u2026 So yeah\u2026 I\u2019m not too bored!
Oh! You know what\u2026 I attended a dutch crash course! And yes, now I\u2019m able to say \u2018Hi, I\u2019m Heike from Germany!\u2019without any hesitation. (Oh, and I can sing 2 Santa Claus songs in dutch!)! Will see what this is good for! Hope we will have a follow up course in January (to get over this baby dutch I just learned:-))<\/p>\n

Okey dokey\u2026 that\u2019s it for this year!
Thanks for taking the time to read all these thoughts I gave birth to over the months \ud83d\ude42 (now\u2026 that sounds weird!)
A hug to you all\u2026
Heiks
PS: Some other maybe not THAT important stuff\u2026 but well:
*I haven\u2019t written much about my hair lately\u2026 it\u2019s SHORT!!! Real short!!! But I like it! \ud83d\ude42
*Now that it\u2019s so cold and dark outside I decided to read some good books. So right now it\u2019s: Captivating, A tale of 3 kings, The sacred dairy of Adrian Plass <\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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